[0:01]They say that happiness is pretty simple. Someone to love, something to do, something to look forward to.
[0:12]I just wish they had been more specific.
[0:26]Anyways, hey.
[0:32]My name is Kaza, and I'm a 20-something year old Filipino girl from Canada. I heard that writing helps with stress and anxiety, and well, between the world ending every week and a quarter life crisis, I need all the help I can get.
[0:49]It's been hard, past few months. I felt like I couldn't do anything at all. Or well, maybe I just didn't know where to start. I think before all this, I was very preoccupied with the business of everyday things. And since then, I've had a lot of time to think about, you know, the meaning of it all.
[1:20]More often than not, I took things for what they were. So busy just trying to survive, I guess. But when you take away all of life's distractions, you're left face with a question we avidly avoid. What am I really doing here? Sometimes I feel like everyone has it down pat. And I'm still trying to figure it out. They have it so easy. We watch movies and hope that life is as fluid and calculated as it is on screen. I this for that, with a clear outcome of each decision they make. It's like looking into a mirror and seeing how you'd want everything to be. And we hear things that hit our heart strings and watch stories with pieces of us in it. And we look at it as a guide to life when really it's just an altered version of it. That's what makes me sad. Life is so different from books. I wish it were the same: clear, logical, organized. Only it isn't.
[2:39]The loneliness, the heartbreak, the mess, the freedom. We all want an example. A one size fits all handbook to help us navigate through. But we can't just wait around for life to happen to us. We have to seek it. We have these expectations from movies and books, and we try to look for answers in them. But ultimately, the only way to get through this thing we call life is to actively participate in it.
[3:14]But you know, I like the notion that everyone has to live for themselves, and not wait around for someone to tell them who they are. We can sit around and feel bad and blame other people for what they did or didn't do, or blame ourselves for things we've never told them. But in the end, life isn't stop for anybody. You are here. That life exists. And identity. That the powerful play goes on and you make a tribute verse. You have to do things. You have to take risks. It's the only way to find out who we really are, and what we want to do with our time on this earth. And even if we fail, what better ways there to live?
