I asked God to rewire my brain (it worked)

[0:00]What you see here on the screen is a list of every sin, limiting belief and addiction that I've struggled with for pretty much most of my life. And over the last 12 months, God has showed me how to rewire my brain to the point that I no longer struggle or even really think about most of the problems that you see on the screen here. So, in this video, I'm going to show you the exact steps I took to partner with God on this journey and by the end you're going to see why things like, you know, discipline, repenting 20 times a day or even praying to God over and over again for deliverance doesn't really work long-term if your goal is permanent lasting change. Now, before get the step one, I need you to understand why most people never change no matter how much effort they put in. And that is most people think that they have this one wall standing between them and their goal. And so what they do is they spend most their time trying to break this wall in hopes of one day getting to this goal here. But what they don't see is that this wall here is actually just a projection or a symptom of these five walls, these five hidden invisible, but very real walls that are actually creating this illusion of a wall that is getting in their way. The other real problem is that God doesn't even care about this problem here, right? This is not of any concern to God. What he cares about is you breaking through these five walls and then actually achieving this goal over here. And this is why most people constantly struggle, right? Because they spent most of their time breaking through this wall or trying to break through this imaginary wall and even when they finally feel like they're making some progress, they get to like this point over here and they realize they're actually going in the wrong direction and that's when they self sabotage and they end up going back to here. So, well that said, this video is not going to be a story about this miraculous deliverance where I just prayed to God once and he took away my problems. Instead, I'm going to share the five practical steps or walls that God helped me break through so that I could finally start ruining my own life and actually go where he wanted me to go. And that leads us to our first step which is repentance. Now, this isn't just normal repentance because earlier I said, you know, the point is not to repent over and over again. I had to go through what I call true repentance. So about six months ago, I started going to this new church that God told me to go to and one of the problems that I came up against earlier on was I was constantly closing myself off from from meeting people. I was distancing myself. I was isolating myself. And I was also kind of like just being really judgy of other people. I was like, "That guy's not a real question. This woman is that." And it was it was not great. And this actually went on for a few weeks until one day I just felt the conviction of God just hit me. Now, just for the record, right? The in the weeks leading up to this moment, I had reputed multiple times. I was like, "God, I'm sorry for not, you know, being more social. I'm sorry for being a dick." Right? But this time felt a little bit different. This time, I have felt Instead of, you know, repenting for being judge or whatever, I felt this sorrow or this the sadness. For the reason that I felt like I was cheating others of the blessings and the gifts and the love that God put in me that he wanted me to share with them and consequently, I was cheating because of that, I was cheating myself of the opportunity to receive love and blessings from other people. And that was when I genuinely started to feel really bad, not because I felt like I was not living up to a certain standard, but because I wanted to connect the people. I wanted to be to to experience love and connection and and to be a blessing to other people the way that God created me. And so I actually went home that day and I just straight up repented right. I was like I genuinely asked God to God like please change my heart, change my mind because I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to actually be surrounded by love and connection and joy and all the fun stuff of being a Christian. Right? And that was when I learned my first big lesson in this journey which was about true repentance. True repentance is not about feeling bad about yourself. or about what you'd done. True repentance is about being able to see your sin the way that God sees it. Like, for example, right, you might feel guilty a lot of the time because you're being unproductive and you're not hitting your goals or you might feel bad because you're broke and you want to stop being broke so you work harder. But like 99% of the time. That's actually like the things that you're caring about, the things that you're repenting for are not even the problems that God has focused on. And that's really the main problem here, right? That that most of the run into is that if you don't repent for the right things, then you don't actually give God the opportunity to help you solve the real underlying problem. Now, let's say you've actually managed to reach a point of true repentance, you've actually been convicted by God and you go and repent for it. How do we actually deal with the real underlying problem that God presents to us? Well, that brings us to step two, which is revealing strongholds. So, real quick for those who who don't know what the strongholds is, it's a term in the Bible in second Corinthians chapter 10 verse 4, and it's basically a belief system or a mental program that runs on autopilot whenever a certain trigger or event occurs. Now, as the name suggests, right? A stronghold is a defensive that is that your brain uses to protect yourself against perceived threats. But the problem with the stronghold is that it's built on top of lies. In other words, your brain is defending yourself from something that it actually shouldn't. So, as I started to learn about strongholds and spiritual warfare and all this kind of stuff which God was really pointing me towards um during this time of my life, I started to ask God the question, you know, what kind of lies am I believing that are causing these problems in my life, specifically the ones that I just told you about. And Holy Spirit actually revealed a whole bunch of um beliefs that were really messing me up, right? Things like nobody understands me. Uh no one's coming to save me. Uh people aren't trustworthy, therefore I have to do everything on my own. Or I have to be better than other people because I just have higher standards. And you can probably imagine how someone with these beliefs can end up being closed off or self-isolating or being really judgy of other people. Right? So I had to go through another round of repentance and basically pronounce all these beliefs that I just had revealed to me by the Holy Spirit. Now, most people when they get to the stage would say something like, great, now I found all the lies, now I'm going to replace them all with truth. And And that does actually work to an extent, but there's actually one really important step that sometimes is necessary for a lot of people that almost everybody gets over. The step that I'm talking about is healing. So, if you've ever been to therapy or counseling or just kind of know about the topic in general, you'll know that one of their most common strategies is they try to get to the roots of a certain behavioral or emotional problem, right? Or in other words, they want to figure out what actually happens in this person's life in their past in their childhood that actually led to this um belief system or stronghold or lies to be cemented in their mind. And so after going through a whole bunch of inner healing resources, I realized that Jesus actually likes to do the same thing with us. And he says this in the Bible, right? And you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free. The point is, you can't actually become free of bondage and sin and addictions if you don't actually understand the entire truth behind it. Like where does it actually come from? Which is why therapists focus so much on this concept. And so one day, this was about a few weeks after that initial repentance I just told you about earlier, I was just sitting down in a counseling session with Holy Spirit and I basically I was basically asking him, you know, what are all the roots behind these different strands in my life? And by the way, that is a 100% biblical because Holy Spirit is literally called our counselor. But anyways, he started to reveal all these different memories from my childhood where I was basically hurt in this way, right? Where I was hurt, where I was attacked, where I was shamed, where I was harassed for expressing my true genuine authentic self for wanting to share my love and expression with other people. And one of the early memories that he revealed to me. And this is actually not even a conscious memory like I don't actually remember this myself. This was actually a memory that my mother told me about like several years ago. And it was about when I was two or three years old, right? It was my first day of day care, so not even preschool. I was being sent to my first day of day care and for context, I grew up speaking Chinese and English in my household with my parents. And so I arrived on this first day and I was like I was feeling myself, right? So I walked in, loud and proud and I just said, I think I said good morning or something, right? And I just Griffiths everybody and the problem was I said in Chinese and I live in Canada. So nobody responded to me. They just kind of looked at me like I was stupid. And apparently I just started crying. And so that's obviously pretty traumatizing for a kid. And Holy Spirit started to reveal more and more memories that were kind of like this, right? in grade three, I had this, you know, my teacher publicly shamed me from my classroom for this piece of art that I created, right? Also pretty traumatizing for an 8-year-old. So, as I started to unpack and reveal these different memories or I had them revealed to me, I started to realize that that every single time that happened, I started to build up this shell of self-defense. I started to become more and more close off because, you know, I realized that it was dangerous to be vulnerable. Now, quick disclaimer, the next thing I'm about to share with you is a little more like left field when it comes to like the spiritual stuff. Although this is a personal experience, this is also a process that I've actually specifically taken other people through and they've achieved deliverance and healing and freedom. So, do it with what you will, right? And if you believe that, you know, there we have a supernatural creature who doesn't want us to experience supernatural things, then skip ahead to the next few minutes. So right after Holy Spirit revealed these memories to me, he actually allowed me to meet my younger like three to four year old self who had gone through these experiences in the spirit. And if you've ever heard of inner child therapy, right? It's base this was basically that except it was instead of being conceptual, it was like an actual conversation. And one of the first things I learned early on in this conversation was the fact that the job of my three-year-old self was to protect my current self from other people. Right? The idea was that any time I got vulnerable, anytime I opened up, anytime I got too close to people that I wasn't familiar with, he'd be like, nope, you're going to stay in this little shell here because that's where you're safe, right? Other people are dangerous, other people are going to hurt you, just like they did last time and every other time before that. And so I had to basically enter this counseling session with my three-year-old self to explain to him that he didn't have to protect me because I have this other guy, right? his name is Jesus. Doesn't much better job than him. And I actually spent like a solid like 5 to 10 minutes ministering or preaching Jesus to my three-year-old self trying to explain that he doesn't need to protect me. And we eventually got to this point of actual reconciliation. Right? I fired him. He was like, I get it. And actually made peace with that entire um really all that trauma in my life. I think that was the deepest healing moments I've ever experienced in my life to this day. I had I've had multiple, but that was probably the biggest one because it was my first one. And I know I'm being very courageous about it right now, but I was like saboing my eyes out the entire time during this process because it was very, very emotional for me. Now, That being said, the job wasn't done because even though three-year-old Ryan was not taking care of, I still had to take care of this Ryan. And that leads us to step four, which is renewing the mind. Now, at this point, I was pretty much over the hump, right? I had identified all the weaknesses of the lies that I was believing before and Holy Spirit just helped me heal and dig up the roots of all these problems. And so now, I just had to fill in all the holes that I just dug up. And of course, the way that we do that is through God's truth, aka scripture. So now, I started digging through a bunch of different Bible verses to figure out the best ones that would apply to my situation that would help me essentially rewrite the lies that I used to believe. And over this process, Holy Spirit revealed a few verses that he really wanted me to focus on for this next step I'm about to explain to you. First one is Hosea 6:6, which says, you desire mercy and not sacrifice. So what I got from this was that essentially means that God does not desire self-sacrifice. He doesn't want us to self- isolate, which is really the whole point of haught culture, self-help culture, which is, you know, get better or get out, right? Instead, God wants us to be merciful not just to other people, but also to ourselves, right? To be forgiving of ourselves, to be kind to ourselves, to be loving of ourselves because that is how he sees us. He wants us to see ourselves the way that he sees us. And that really leads us to the next two verses, which was Galatians chapter 4:7 and John 14:18, which says, we are no longer slaves but sons and heirs. And you will not leave us as orphans and that you would come to us. So before I was living like a slave and or, you know, I believe that I had to be better, to do better. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to earn the approval and the love of God and other people. But through this process, right, of deliverance, healing, revelation, God showed me that I didn't have to prove myself to be loved or accepted by him because I was his son and he would love me no matter what. But here's the thing. Reading these once wasn't enough. God actually wanted me to read and declare the scriptures over myself every single day. Pretty much well, he hasn't told me to stop. So over the last six to seven months, which is when this happens, I've been reading the same scriptures along with like 15 other different verses every single day declaring them over myself. And the purpose of that, there's actually a concept in neurosciences that really supports this. Well, there's a whole bunch of concepts that feed into the why this works, but the core concept is the concept of neurotoxicity, which is the idea that when you make your brain fire in a certain way over and over again, it actually strengthens and grows its neural pathways in that sequence so that it actually becomes more of an automatic process. So in other words, if you're going to repeat the same Bible verses over to yourself over and over again, they actually become a natural part and automatic part of your thinking process. So, at this point, we've dug up the lies, we've dug up the roots and we've filled those holes with truth. So, we're done. Right? Well, no. Because now we got to build a big old fortress on top of the new soil to make sure that nobody can dig up what we just planted. And that leads us to the final step which is reinforcing. So, this is a step that most people try to skip through from day one when they're trying to change their behavior. Right? They try to apply more discipline, they start doing extreme things like 5 arms, cold showers or building these habiters that took them more time to make than actually doing the habit themselves. But the problem with that is that it's kind of like building a castle on top of a beach. Right? You can make the walls as strong and as tall as you want, but once a few waves hit the sand, the whole thing's going to fall over. And this is actually what Jesus talks about in his one of his most famous metaphors, right? or stories, which is he tells us to build our house on the rock and not on the sand. Now, in our case, that's not really a problem because we already dealt with all the junk cleaning up to this, so we can actually get to building the the castle without worrying about it falling over. So, how does this actually work in practice? So, to help me reinforce my new identity and reality, God actually gave me three specific instructions. So, the first one is I have to pray for every one of my enemies and anybody who ever offends me. The second one is similar to the first one, which is anytime I feel bitter or I feel attacked or criticized or I even start judging other people, I have to immediately release it to Jesus through prayer. Meaning basically I can't hold on to it, I can't think about it, I have to just let go of it and not dwell on it. The third one is a little different from the first two. So the third one is anytime someone compliments me, I'm not allowed to deflect it. Meaning I have to simply receive it, say thank you and not you know be like fake humble, right? Like let's say someone compliments me on my shirt. I'm not going to be like I can't be like no your shirt is better. I I was like 10 bucks. I got it from Amazon. Right. I have to actually just receive it and just say thank you. And I can say that even though these sounds either silly or extreme, I can say with confidence that ever since I've implemented everything I showed you in this video especially these three behaviors. I've pretty much never struggled with the problem again, right? I'm now super open with people. I don't judge people that often and even when I do, I can just catch it and throw it away. So, this has really really improved my social life, it's improved my emotional health and my just my overall quality of life has really gone up ever since I started living this way and actually obeying God. Now, if we go back to the big list of problems that I showed you at the beginning of this video, every single one of these problems were actually resolved by at least one, but usually not all of these five steps I just showed you. Right? Most of them are usually dealt with after like two to three. In this case, I had to go through all five for this specific problem, which is why I talked about it in this video. But every single problem I've dealt with that God has helped me get free from him was resolved or dealt with using one of these five steps. So before you wrap up, there's actually one more like bonus step if you will that I want to take you through that isn't really a separate step, but it's more of a it's a key ingredient that you need in every single one of these steps I just showed you. And that step or that ingredient is revelation. We need God's revelation if we want to be able to operate in any of the things that I just showed you about. We need him to convict us in the right way to be able to reach true repentance. We need him to help us uncover our hidden beliefs and strongholds are hidden traumas that need healing. We need him to show us the right scriptures to renew our minds and we need him to give us the right actions to reinforce our new reality. Like if you think about it logically, God is the only person who knows the real roots and nature of our problems and consequently he's also the only person who actually knows the best solution to our problem from every different angle. Because I've gone through this five step process multiple times, right? And there's been so many times where I thought my problem was one thing or the root of my problem was one thing, Holy Spirit will come in and say, no, like your problem is actually here and only when I dealt with this thing, did I actually become free of that problem permanently? But that being said, the most important revelation we can have is the revelation of Christ, the revelation of who Jesus is. Right? If you don't know the one who is the source of all true healing, the source of all true freedom and the source of truth itself, you're never going to actually get to the place where you have those things running. your life. Like in my case, if I didn't know Jesus personally, if I didn't have a personal revelation of him, I would have no need of the level of faith. I needed to walk through each of these five steps in this video. And obviously, that journey of building our relationship with God is a journey in itself. So if you want to know how I was able to build my relationship with God, how I learned to hear his voice, how I had a bunch of encounters with him. Then you can go watch this next video here where I break that down in detail.