[0:12]All right. Chris. Yes. Chris, uh, where'd you grow up? Where are you from originally? I'm from a town called Pensacola, Florida. Mhm. It's on the pan handle, right there by Alabama. Yeah. Uh, I lived there for like 20 something years. And then I moved to Mississippi for like eight years. And I was helping to take care of my grandpa and then he finally died. And then so I moved to, uh, I moved to, I was going to go to California, uh, originally, but then I had this weird dream, that it was like, I got killed when I went to California. So I just like, I'm not going to go. And uh, or the person that I was going to go with couldn't go with me. Yeah. And, But I went on vacation with my boss to Las Vegas. We went on vacation to spread his son's ashes and meet some family friends there. And schizophrenia just kicked in out of nowhere. Like I wasn't on drugs, I was just smoking weed. And uh, I wasn't even drinking. And it just all of a sudden started hearing voices and seeing things that I have these crazy thoughts all the time. And it was, it was schizophrenia. Yeah, I still deal with it now. Since uh, it went away for a little bit, like when I was in jail, cause uh, I was um, I'm not supposed to talk about it. Cause if I talk about it, it makes it go away. But if it's, if I keep it around, I'm keeping somebody alive. I'm sorry. What? Uh, it's like I'm connected with another extra, like with an extra dimensional being and I'm keeping it alive by keeping certain aspects of what I see in my psychosis. It's like real shit, like other people will respond to it in time, like in proper time sequence. And uh, If you talk about it? If I talk about it, it goes away. So that's a good thing. No? Yeah, unless it's real and then I'm killing somebody. So, so you ended up in jail? Yeah, uh, I heard I heard this dude or it was like 10 guys raping a little girl. And uh, I was going to grab a brick and rush in the house and she was like, she told me psychically, she's like, don't do that. There's like 10 of them. They'll just kill you and continue to rape me. Do this, light the house on fire and they when they go outside to put the fire out, I'll be able to escape and get out. So I did. I let the house on fire and they caught me. They got me on camera. And was, was there a girl and 10 guys? No. No, just gets a friend you. That was your schizophrenia? Yeah. You you ended up in jail? Yeah, for a tempt to murder. I went up going to prison for Arson. Oh, prison for Yeah. Wow. And it was all because of your schizophrenia? Yeah, I had, uh, I even had three doctors. I was fighting my case in GI, which is not guilty by insanity. And I could have gone to a mental hospital instead of prison. But they were like, basically, if you go to the mental hospital, you could spend your whole life there. I was like, okay, just give me the four years in prison. But now I get to register as an arst and all this other stuff. Wow. Is there schizophrenia in your family? No. That's the weird part. My mom, okay, my mom has cancer. And when she went into chemotherapy, she went to psychosis for like two weeks in during chemo. Where she thought her, her her boyfriend wasn't real. He was a computer program and like, uh, there's no way he was going to come visit her and stuff like that. Mine is nothing like that. Mine is like some ninja shit. I'm like a psychic wizard who can like communicate with people using different methods, like there's voices on the cars as they pass by, you can hear them talking through the cars or like on the wind or like they'll be like certain noises you'll hear like a knock of wood on the right side at this time means something like means yes or no, you know, like binary. And then there's, then there's like symbols in the sky with uh, like black and white balls of light and they change direction and it looks like a game of uh, go. It you're in your right mind now. So? No, I've been I've been hearing voices since I got put back on the street. I think it was the stress. Well, I guess what I'm getting at is you understand that you're imagining these things? Yeah, I'm taking my medication and uh, But even, even the fact that you understand that. I try not to engage with it. Yeah. But like, it seems like the more I ignore it, the worse it gets. I'll always that right? Oh, is that right? I check in to see like where they're at and what's going on and it's like way worse. So you're fighting this constantly? Yeah. And are you there is a medication that you're taking? Yeah, Hall doll.
[4:30]I bet you there's another medication you're taking too, looking at your knees. Yeah, well, What are you taking? Uh, I just smoked some crystal. That'll do it. Had some coffee this morning. That'll do it too. Yeah. You've been on the skid road for how long? Uh, I've been on skid row for like a week now. Yeah, I just I was at a program when I got out of prison. Um, I just got out in November and I've been in the program the whole time, but they kicked me out for smoking weed. It was the second time I got in trouble with drugs there. So it was a rehab program. You can't have any alcohol, no drugs. You can only smoke cigarettes and drink coffee.
[5:04]So now you're on the street? Now I'm on the street. And I fucked off my job interview that I had going on. So I'm not getting that. I might I might start work next week, which would be good. It'll be like a hundred dollars a day, so that's like that can get me off the street. Or get me at least with a good tent. I want to go to Santa Monica.
[5:23]It's safer, probably. Yeah, a little bit safer. Venice is pretty rough though. Like I've seen people get their ass beat for me for no reason. Yeah, but you get people murdered here every day. Yeah. Yeah. And you you think this is all because of your schizophrenia? Yeah, uh,
[5:47]Yeah. I think it's like, If it's not real, then it's one hell of a good like hallucination. Because to you it's 100% I I've done ass it a bunch of times and I've hallucinated more on pure schizophrenia, like sober schizophrenia than I ever did on LSD. Really? Ever. I saw the moon get sucked into a black hole. You know how terrifying that is? You're just standing there, you look up and the moon just goes and it's gone. And then you know that earth is next. Yeah. Apparently, we're in a realm called Ninjago, which means like, we were sucked up by a black hole and we are California's like the last of the earth that's left. And it's orbiting this black hole. And there's other Ninjago realms that have been sucked into the black hole too. And they orbit it too and we can hear them on like the sound of cars that they can like send clicking noises over here. Like you do like this and you like cause a click where somebody is with nothing to cause it, you know what I mean? Just random noises. But there seems to be like always a pattern and a method to what's going on with the random noises. They all orchestrate together. And how's the crystal meth use? Increase or accelerated your Okay, when I was first in psychosis before I got put on medication two, three years ago, two years ago, about three years ago is when I went into psychosis. And I was in psychosis for a year and I went up walking all over, I went from Las Vegas, I took a bus through LA up through California into Sacramento, where I had some friends that were staying with, that I was staying with. And uh, the voices were like, they're cannibals, they're trying to sell you for ten, ten thousand dollars. Get the fuck out of here. So I'm like, oh shit, I gotta go. So I just left and just put on my friends. You can't override these thoughts, knowing that they're just yours. No, I have to like, I have to acknowledge all of the bullshit that they're throwing at me, while still simultaneously saying, nope, I'm ignoring it. Oh, I see. And that's how I make it to from point A to point B, otherwise, I would just be walking, reading the ground all the time, doing these weird dances and shit. It's gonna be hard for you to have a job. Uh, I can focus. Like, I just I earn a little money today, helping somebody wash your car. I only got stuck a couple times. And the job that I have applied for, that I'm waiting to hear back on, it was just picking up trash with Cal trans. You can do that. Yeah.
[8:09]I wouldn't put me in charge of anything like, that has with a lot of responsibility. Right. I mean, there there's nothing you could have done to avoid this. No, it just kicked off out of nowhere. Like see, okay, you were how old? Uh, 29. 29. 29 when it all when it all started. Which is a little bit late for schizophrenia. Which is very late for schizophrenia. Uh, I've even seen on some doctor's show, they're like, schizophrenia will just pop up when you're older. Yes, it does. And again, no drugs? No drugs. I was sober. I was just smoking weed that time. Oh, so right. Yeah. Yeah. I was just smoking weed at the time and all of a sudden, I'm like, getting horrific images of my brother being filet alive and, Maybe there was something in the weed? Uh, maybe it's the same dude I always get from. We always smoke together. So like he wasn't tripping out. Yeah. And I just was playing Uno with some kids and next thing I know, I had to get out of there. Maybe we can do it. Yeah, uh, well, the best way I've heard it explained is like, if you do a lot of hard core drugs like crystal, heroin, LSD, ecstasy, Molly, stuff like that, uh, your, your brain chemical balance has like a pull that fills up with schizophrenia. Like this pull fills up. And eventually you'll get to the top. And whenever it just spills over is the psychosis. And uh, I used to slam crystal years ago. Uh, before your schizophrenia kicked in? Yeah, before my schizophrenia kicked in. I've been sober for like a year and a half when I went into psychosis. That's interesting. And uh, and like six months into my psychosis, I relapsed again. Started slamming, started smoking. Uh, I, okay, before when I was on when I was in psychosis, before when I started smoking meth, the voices got violent and loud and like bad. Before when it was just weed and tobacco, they were like go find your family, go find something to eat. We're going to direct you to the next meal. And then they would voices would walk me to the next meal. They walked me to the hospital one time. When I I had sex in an alley with some chick and got gonorrhea. And my testicle was this big. I couldn't even walk. It was huge.
[11:11]And uh, you're going to have to cut this part out. I typically don't.
[11:20]So, uh, I'm like, I'm like, okay, I'm at the beach. I'm like, okay, I got to go to the hospital. I can't walk anywhere. I can't even get to the water fountain. I had fly some dude down, I'm like, hey, can I use your phone? But the voices are very adamant not that I don't use technology. They don't even touch technology. Like because apparently I've got like different magic built up in me. And when I touch stuff, it transfers to it. And if I touch technology, then I'll put magic and technology and destroy it. You you seem perfectly sensible, except you're saying ridiculous crazy things. Right. Right. Right. Are are you What's what's the craziest thing you've concocted your imagination or your schizophrenia? Oh man. The craziest things it's concocted. I mean, You've already mentioned a few that are. Probably that I'm God. Yeah, that's probably the craziest one. But apparently, God and the devil are the same incarnation just in different lifetimes. It depends on how much the people the the the the people are actually the psychics, the the main collective psychic group, they control who is who, what numbers you get issued, what, what names you'll get issued, stuff like that. They're like, you're God, dude. You're obviously God. Every time I go to the beach, if I throw they when I look at nature, if I'm walking on the street, if I look at nature, their message is very clear, throw them in the ocean. Just throw them in the ocean. And then when I go to the ocean, they're like, you're God. You have to do these things and you'll have magic and you'll get food and you'll have everything you want, but you're going to have to be homeless because you're also the devil. Yeah. When when my psychosis started, it was kind of interesting. It was just me in a tent in Sacramento, hearing Will Smith's voice outside of my tent, explaining to me that one of us is Jesus and one of us is the devil. We had to figure out which one was which. And I was like, obviously, Will, you're, you're God, right? He's like, oh, well, then you're the devil. And that means you you inherit the earth and all the magic that comes with it since we're going into this magical realm. And uh, you'll be able to hear things and see things that nobody else can believe if only if it wasn't for the fact that they can all see out of your left or right eye, depending on what kind of if they're, uh, an A or a Woo, which I know doesn't make any sense, but I know what they're they're distinct people from other dimensions. One focuses on technology and the Woo focus on magic. And we got sucked into uh, a Woo black hole, which puts us in the magical realm. And the Illuminati still trying to use magic. So they're they're still trying to use technology. So they're trying to prevent me from going back with the Woo so I can bring magic back more prominently in the world. Wow. Yeah. Despite what you're going through, you seem pretty upbeat and you don't seem depressed or Well, I'm high. That helps. Oh, you're high? Yeah. But do you get depressed over this? Not really. Uh, sometimes, like some bad things will happen. Like there was a girl I was talking to in San Francisco. Apparently, she got raped and killed by like 10 dudes. And then they had her body in the subway station. And uh, this is when I was across the bay, trying to get to San Francisco. And when they did that, I just started riding, I started like spray painting cars and smashing windows and stuff. And like talking shit. I was like one of the few times you you might have actually seen me talking myself out loud. Because most of the time, I'm psychic or I can just like answer using these colored lights that I can see floating around and control by doing like this. Uh, I can give answers to other psychics, depending on what they see and stuff like that. Through my eyes. I I've heard so many of these stories now, and it seems the mental health issues can bring on the drug use and the drug use makes the mental health issues worse. Yeah, it's called dual diagnosis. Yeah. And they just make each other worse. Yeah. What, what are some of the craziest things you've experienced with your schizophrenia? Oh, well, when I was on my way from Sacramento to Port Richmond, which is right across the bay from Sam Fran. Uh, about halfway there, I was like, the whole time I was walking from Sacramento to the Coast. I was hearing psychics talk the whole time. You walked from Sacramento to San Francisco? Yeah. And uh, and then about halfway through there, I started seeing these symbols like up here, like black orbs just appearing in front of me and like knocking stuff over or like moving tree branches, shit like that. Like they they had mass, they were moving stuff. And uh, Oh, I keep getting I keep getting approached by men. I think it's the long hair. I think I think what what do they call uh crystal meth in in prison? They call it uh queer juice?
