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[0:00]Are you done with God? You're burned out. You're tired. You feel like you're a fake Christian. You're doubting your salvation every day. The first two years of my walk with God was the most miserable time of my life. I started doing all these outward things. I started changing my habits, I started changing my actions. And before I knew it, I had this internal tension every day where I felt like a fraud. I felt like I didn't truly believe. I felt like I was behind every other Christian. Every everyone seemed to love God. They love church, they love Bible studies. And I felt like I didn't love it, and it made me question if I was truly saved. It made me question if God loved me. It made me question if I was serving Satan without even realizing it. And that constant fear got to me every single day, but instead of being honest about it. Instead of fixing it, instead of, you know, bringing it to the light, I stored it down and I kept putting on the front. I kept lying, I kept acting like I love God. I kept claiming Jesus. I kept saying he saved my life. He transformed my life and I was a walking insecurity. I was an emotional wreck 24/7. You know, I was deflecting all of my internal issues onto people in my life. And I always had this idea that once I got this, I'd be happy once I figured this out. Once I made this money, once I got to this place, once I got married, once I got whatever it may be, then I was going to be happy. But I've been able to realize that my external world will always reflect what I feel in the internal. So I was chasing after something I was never going to be able to attain. I was never going to be able to find that joy. Find that peace. You know why? Because I was operating from this place of scarcity. I was operating from this place of I'm not enough, and I'll be enough once I prove myself. Once I accomplish a business, once I make a lot of money, once I read the Bible front to back. I had all these ideas in my head. You know what it caused me to do? I stayed stuck, I stayed stagnant. I didn't even want to take action on a day-to-day basis because I was so scared. I was living in this mindset where every action I took was a verdict against me, or a verdict for me. You know what made it so much worse, is everyone in my life told me to just keep trying harder. They told me to keep surrendering. They told me to just be more disciplined. And I tried for so long and I could not put my finger on why I was genuinely empty as a Christian when I was trying to follow Jesus so hard. And I've been able to realize over this period of time, it all came down to me thinking I was good. It all came down to me thinking that I was enough and I could do it, and I had to justify myself. But I finally realized the truth of the gospel, that I'm dirt, I'm nothing. None is good, I'm only evil. My heart is deceitful. And the moment I started to look back at all the things that I had done, all the things I had failed at. I finally was able to see, wow, why does God want me? Why does God love me? Why does he wake me up? Why did he give me eternal life? Why did he forsake Jesus for me? And that created this heart inside of me that made me go, wow, this is the gospel. This is the point of Jesus dying for me. This is why I need a new identity. This is why no matter how hard I tried, I'd never be able to feel like I was enough. I would never be able to justify myself because I was imperfect, I already fallen short. Break one, you break them all. All I did was mess up. But when I embrace that weakness, I finally felt like I was able to break through, because God met me there. And I realized why would I keep operating from myself? Why would I not start operating from this place of acceptance? Because I could never earn acceptance to begin with. I saw what I deserved and that was hell. Then I finally saw what I gained through Christ, and slowly but surely, I've learned to be able to walk out my identity and express it and not prove myself. And it's created this internal peace. It's created this internal joy and this security. Don't get it twisted, I still have days where I go back to the old way, but that's why I'm documenting this whole thing. Why I'm helping all of you and want to change your lives to this gospel. I know what it can do. I've seen what it's done in my life. I've seen what it's done in people's lives that I've helped, and it's something that no one teaches out there anymore. Because it's all about works. It's all about you have to do this, but no, it's truly Jesus did it all for you and all you have to do is participate. You're not trying to sin less or become a better Christian. You are trying to align with who you already are. While you're being deceived by Satan to act from an identity that you're no longer a part of. So know this, you're righteous, you're perfected in Christ, and you can move boldly from that. And when the internal gets fixed and secure like that, I promise you your external world is going to start reflecting things. You never thought it could reflect.