[0:01]Do we ever demand of ourselves the very best? The very excellence of us. Or we're always playing rather low-key. You understand my question? Do we ask ourselves something more than the average? More than the usual mediocre life. Job, house, wife, children, or husband, and the rest of it, usual routine, the rat trap. Do we ask of ourselves what it is that we really want? Desire, crave for. I think it's a good question. To be put and to be answered. Do I as a human being living in this insane world, in this really very cruel, thoughtless world. Do I want to belong to all that? Do I want to settle down into a easy, comfortable life? Which doesn't mean I don't want comfort or easy life, but is this what I want? To satisfy my own desires, my own pleasures. My own sexual appetites. Do I want to live a rather narrow, limited, self-centered life?
[3:18]If I put that question to yourself and to myself, what would you answer? You may not want it. I may not want that kind of life. But I'm caught in an environment, in a trap. A society that is so ugly, and I'm, I'm ready to be swallowed up.
[4:06]If I'm not, if I don't allow myself to live a narrow, limited, self-centered life. Can I face a life of solitude? Can I face a life which which makes me go against the whole current of existence of modern life? So it's really a good question to put oneself these these questions. Or should I become, join some kind of sect?
[5:18]And get lost in it. Like Catholic church is a sect, you know, large sense of that word. And I can become a monk, join a group of monks, and feel completely safe there. Or be in a small community, accepting all their rules and all that. So what kind of life does one want to lead? Is this a true serious question? Hm? Would you tell me? But you're all serious, you won't even answer. Is this too serious a question for us to understand and face? Or we are too young, or old age. I think one has to face this question, very seriously. Because one must learn from now on, if we are interested if you are serious, from now on, learn how to live a life which is not merely self-centered and therefore in a strange way very destructive.
[7:33]I think the essence of that word, real depth of meaning of that word, is to live totally a harmonious life without any contradiction in oneself. That it all possible to live a life where your thought, your intellect isn't in opposition to your feelings, to your senses, to your affection.
[8:34]I wonder if you follow all this. Do you?
[8:56]If I if I was your age, 13, 15, 14, 15, 20. If somebody asked me that question. Somebody says to me at that age, do you want to live a life of great intelligence? A life that is clear, that has extraordinary sense of vitality. I really wouldn't know how to answer him. I would ask, what do you mean by being intelligent? What do you mean by that word? Because the, the most conservative people use that word. The most intellectual also use that word. Those who are dedicated to a ideal, to a principle, to a, to Marxism, or this or that, use also that word.
[10:21]And also at home, said, do be intelligent for God's sake, they still are. So I think we ought to find out what that word means to each one of us. To be intelligent.
