[0:00]Hey guys, welcome back to Dream Analytica. I'm going to talk about the INTP, ADHD and life direction. Something I've struggled with personally in understanding my own psychology. And I think I want to share my own personal experiences in order to maybe help other people if they are struggling with the same things in terms of trying to find the right direction in life. And there really is no defined path that people should pay to pick in regards to their life direction. So this isn't advice or anything like that. It's more about sharing my experiences in how I manage my own mind and my own choices in regards to what I want to do with my life and what I am interested in, trying to tie that with my career, the direction in which I want to take in terms of not just living life, but also earning a living as well. And I know it can be extremely difficult for a lot of people, particularly struggle with ADHD, which I think personally, is rather related to the personality type. I think ADHD is not a disorder as the clinical terminology likes to put it, but rather just a function of the person's personality type. There seems to be a huge correlation between personality types and ADA, particularly the INTP, the ENFJ, sorry, the ENTJ, the INFP, perhaps, the INFJ, and possibly the INTJ. So I think in sharing my own experience, I think it will have some sort of resonance to other personality types who share the same as my own. Let me get started. What I think, what has worked for me is, first of all, understanding that I had ADHD. I say had because I no longer define myself according to that term. I don't think it's a disorder. So then I started looking into personality types, particularly Jungian personality types or typology. And that really helped a lot in describing who I am because ADHD is sort of like a blanket term for these behaviors that people with ADHD have. And then I started realizing that in the very beginning, it was really exciting because it made me understand like, okay, this is who I am. Like it explains a lot about my behaviors, like not being able to stick to one subject, not being able to pay attention in school or getting really bored about structure and not being able to expand on my own interests and curiosities. And ADHD really helped explain like, okay, maybe the problem is because I'm not able to pay attention in terms of my dopamine, my there's no dopamine in regards to what I'm learning at that particular moment. And so therefore, because I lack that interest in that subject, I'm not able to focus. And then I started going to personality types, which explained even more that particularly for the INTP, we are just so full of ideas and just such, there's such an expansive universe within us. And we are so hyped on curiosity, like we like to understand how things work from a theoretical standpoint, and we are really good at grasping structural frameworks. And we get sort of bored caught up in the routine sort of stuff, the maintenance kind of kind of things. Which for some personality types is actually beneficial. The maintenance personality types, the the the personality types, most likely the sensation types, which like to, which enjoy routine processes and maintenance work. But for the INTP, because we have extroverted intuition, and you see how understanding the functions of cognition help you sort of explain some of these behaviors. So because of that extroverted intuition, paired with the introverted thinking, it's like a, it just wants to know everything. It wants to understand things that may be practically useful or not. A lot of the times, a lot of the information that I absorb is not practically useful, but it's something that I enjoy and I can dive really deep into a subject which resonates with me, which I really find interesting. So what I have come to learn is that ADHD was sort of like the precursor to self-understanding, and then it just became too generalized. Like you could apply it like take this drug and it'll satisfy your dopamine so you can focus on anything, really. That's what methamphetamine is. From my experience, it, it just releases the dopamine so that you're able to focus on anything. It's really because what they think ADHD is there's a lack of stimulation in everyday processes. We need something that really excites us. But those things that do excite us are very particular, are specialized. So, so the the drug is there to just sort of coat everything that we are able to focus, that there's a release in stimulation, so that we're able to sit down and just do the work, the mundane work, which it did help in the beginning after taking Adderall for several years. It did help, but then it started waning off quite rapidly. My health began deteriorating significantly because it suppresses appetite. It it sort of numbs you. It numbed me, it it really numbed my emotions, and as a matter of fact, it actually exacerbated my anger. It made me really angry when I was on that drug, and the slightest things would trigger me. So it started, the benefits of the drug started declining quite rapidly, and then I realized I needed to stop taking it because it's just really terrible for my health. It's a salt, so meaning it's an amphetamine. It's meth. So it's not good for you. From my own experience, I realized it wasn't good for me, so I stopped. And then I started understanding more and more about psychology and particularly Jungian psychology, which in my personal experience saved my life, because it really helped me understand myself on a deeper level than ADHD tried to explain. So understanding my personality type that I'm an introvert, that I am introverted thinking, that I have something called intuition, particularly extroverted intuition, which takes in all this information and expands it, which really helped me understand how my mind works and why I may not see the world, why I saw the world differently than the people around me, particularly sensation types. And it also helped me understand my inferior function, which is so important in psychology. Your inferior function is the doorway to evil. So it really helped me understand that I have because I have such a strong thinking dominant function, it would be compensated by a very primitive inferior feeling function, which is in order to counterbalance our psychology, that's what the inferior function does. So that helped me dive even deeper into my psychology, and understand myself and relate to people better. Once you understand extroverted feeling better, which is about group harmony. It really helps you, if you're unconscious of it, you're, you're going to be quite oblivious to the facts of those things, unconscious of those things. But then if you better integrate it, better understand it, that you have a counterbalance called extrovert feeling, particularly for the INTP, then you start to relate to people better because you understand feelings better. And it opens a door. It really does open a door to a whole new world of cognition that you never thought possible. A whole new world of relating to people, and enables you to become quite practically a very good leader in your field.
[8:32]So you understand those aspects, which could also explain sort of our introverted sensation, which which sits on the third slot also explains like our lack of relationship to the sensory world, to the practical matters, the like, the the things that sit in front of us, because our Extroverted sensation, which deals with those kind of things, sits way back in the unconscious. So that explains a lot about how it's sort of related to ADHD. And then what I realized too, um, again, if we keep going deeper into more of a personalized approach, then you start focusing on your dreams because the dreams are your essence. So when personality type, when I started identifying with personality type, it was just like discovering ADHD. It was incredibly helpful, but then it started becoming a bit too generalized now. Like it wasn't specific enough to my own life. Like, okay, I have, I'm an introvert, so on and so forth. I have introverted thing, okay. But again, that became too generalized. So then I started looking at dreams, and then dreams really helped, sort of, because it's so, it comes directly from the essence of your being, dreams. You start to dive really deep into your psychology, that you can really see like the extroverted feeling aspect, like I mentioned before, appear as your feminine side, your anima, and how disheveled or Primitive she looks in your dreams, it really does show you that like, for example, for my dream, before I understood about the concept, these concepts in practicality terms, in psychological terms.
[10:15]Sorry, what my the anima, my inner feminine appeared as the girl from the ring, and it's exactly like that. She appeared as, um, this dark-haired girl, and it was terrifying. So that showed you the relationship I had with my anima back then, which was a complete mystery to me. My feelings were a complete mystery to me. And yeah, and then over time, after analyzing my dreams properly, and understanding her properly, she transformed into a beautiful woman now. So that's sort of how you get even deeper into not just ADHD, not just personality types, but now into your anima, and how it describes, directly describes that feminine side within you. I know it sounds like, okay, this is the problem with INTPs too, by the way. We, we have these chains of associations that seem like common sense to us, but it's completely oblivious to everyone else, and we're kind of like in our own world, but it will make sense later on to you. Once you understand that after learning personality types, and you focus on your dreams, all of this will make sense. So again, this is more for personality types that are similar to my own, including the ENTJ, which sits at the opposite end, which is our opposite. So now how do I structure my life in terms of understanding these things? Because I know that I'm so interested in everything, that it's very difficult to sit with one subject only for the rest of my life, and I knew that. What I did was structure it in a way, okay, what are the, what are the subjects that I am really interested in? And so it was like economics, finance, psychology, obviously, programming, art and design. So these were the five that I selected. I consciously selected these five, and I was like, okay, I want to integrate all these subjects into my life because I cannot live without any of them. I need them. And it's going to be extremely difficult in the beginning, but it will be well worthwhile because I feel more fulfilled in doing this. And it also helps with the ADHD aspect because we tend to get bored of a subject quite easily. So we tend to start projects and then not finish them, which is a big problem for ADHD folks. In in my experience, at least that's what I experienced with my ADHD and my personality type. So I picked those five subjects, and then I realized, okay, I understand how my mind works, like I'll get bored easy, but I also get interested easy too. And then I realized over time that there was this pattern that I would like quite literally in a year. I would be interested in one subject, get bored, get interested in another subject, and get bored, and they all circulated around these five subjects. So what I once I noticed that pattern, it wasn't like focus on one subject to the exclusion of the others. As a matter of fact, it was focus on one subject, and then once you feel it's going to be a strong feeling like, oh, okay, I'm not interested anymore. You don't throw that away forever. You just put it on the back burner, let your unconscious work on it, and then focus on the next subject. So in the big list, let's use the year as a reference, as an example. So like in the beginning of the year, it'll be economics and finance. I'll be super interested in that, and then focus on that. And then really try because I've recognized it, that you're not going to throw it away, but you're rather going to improve it a couple of percentage points each time, each each each cycle. So improve it a couple of percent, maybe like one or two, maybe even five if you have enough energy. And then you're going to get bored, okay, like, okay, I'm done with economics now and finance. And then move on to the next one, which is psychology or whatever my next one would be. Most likely, it'll be psychology as a counterbalance to economics. But you also realize they're connected. Economics is connected to psychology. If you understand psychology, you can be quite good at economics too, and finance. So then you move into psychology, you start practicing on that and improving that. And then you move into programming, and I try to relate the programming to psychology, which is my main career path, I suppose. So I tried to relate the programming to psychology, and then started building applications, started building my website, which is now available in the link. And that's amazing, like you can connect the two fields together. Okay, and then you improve on the programming, and that one's tough because in programming, things update daily, like possibly even hourly, so you have to keep up with the trends. So that I sort of hop in and out of during the year, but let's just say that I'm focused on programming, and then, okay, you get bored of that. Then you focus on art and design, which again, I try to relate to my programming. So I needed to design the logos, design the font, design the the layout, design the interface, the experience for my website and my app. And in terms of art, like I also also play music. So to satisfy my feminine side, I play music for no one but myself. It's just for me. So I'll just play the piano or the guitar on my own. And I do that as sort of like psychological balance and stuff like that. And then you realize that art is related to psychology, very deeply related to psychology. Because if you are an artist, and I'm talking about like a real artist, like the ones who have really grasped the nature of their unconscious.
[16:15]You realize that when you are in the zone or in flow state, there's no thinking. So the thinking completely shuts down or is just pushed to the side, and you're sort of like in this unconscious state, which I have come to learn, my anima, my inner woman, she quite literally takes over my body and plays the instrument or holds the brush in my hand, and I've become ambidextrous, so I've activated my left hand. So I really practiced writing and drawing with my left hand, so that quite literally represents my feminine side taking over. So I would draw with my left hand. And that helps her express herself because she does need to come out. She needs to express herself. And if you go even deeper, if you understand where this cycle is leading, you're also integrating your shadow because the, if I'm focused on psychology, which is absolutely subjective, then my shadow would be more analytical, which would be economics and or programming. So you're really working out your entire self, the self there, you're letting all parts of yourself come alive, and it's just incredibly beneficial, I have found for myself. I can you never get bored. And when you do get bored, you won't fall into a depression because you don't know what to do, because you have you already know what's coming up next. It sort of also helps the INTP or the mind like the INFJ, who's who could be quite scattered, organize themselves psychologically. Understanding like, okay, I'm going to go into this pitfall of despair, of unknowing, but if you have another interest that you could fall back on, that you know you would be quite excited about, you're not going to fall into that despair. You'll be caught by the next personality within you. So it's like satisfying all your personalities in a way. Again, this is not advice, but this is just what I have found that really helped me in my life, and I have spoken to friends and colleagues and clients as well. And when I told them this, like it wasn't a big deal to me, but apparently to them, it was something quite profound. They didn't realize that they could do that. And I realized why is because society particularly in school has told us to focus on one thing and one thing only, to become to specialize in one field and one field only. Particularly for the older generations, they were told like, you, you don't have enough time in your life or if you focus on too many subjects, you become irrelevant to one. But actually the full quote is a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one. That's the full quote. So they sort of lied to us in a way, although it might've been for noble intentions. We don't know. They were just probably unaware that they could do more than one thing. And yeah, I mean, it's all connected, really. So you're not really, it's not like you're scatterbrained or anything. And you do need all of these things in your life. You do need to be analytical, you do need to be practical, you do need be creative. It's absolutely important to be those things. You need to play. And where in your life are you allowing yourself to play? You have to kind of treat yourself like your own child, like, you want your child to have a good life. You want them to experience their childhood properly. You want them to play. And you need to afford yourself those things too because you are as well a child inside. You'll see that child in your dreams. And depending on what state he's in, or she's in, will show you your the state of your inner child. That's exactly how you would know where you are in terms of your own psychology. So you need to afford those things and obviously like for the practically minded, they're like, oh, yeah, we can't do or take care of things, make money. Sure, but if you only focus on those things, there will be a compensation. It's not whether I say it or whether a judge says it or anyone, your psychology will compensate and will pay you back in return and for where you have neglected it. So, okay, you, sure, you can focus on one aspect of your life only. The other one's gonna come around the corner and beat the shit out of you. It's gonna beat the living shit out of you. It's gonna attack you with these negative thoughts. Creativity becomes destructive. Again, it could work in reverse too, like if you're only focused on creativity, the practical side will come out and beat you with a stick. Like, you'll get in trouble from the law, like you'll not have any food on the table, you won't be able to afford rent, and so on and so forth. Again, this is not easy, and it never was supposed to be. If it were easy, we would all be living in utopia. But this is what I found has worked for me after an immense amount of struggle. And the reason I'm sharing this is because I don't want people to go through the same thing as I did. It was incredibly painful, being hammered down by society and refusing to be hammered down and fighting quite literally for my life to be who I am, to accept myself for who I am, and then to make a living doing the things that I enjoy or the things that really resonated with me. Because there are things that you're going to have to do that you just don't enjoy, but in terms of practicality, in terms of making money, you need to do those things unfortunately. Like, for for one, I don't particularly like talking to people. I'm an introvert, and I prefer to keep to myself in my own head. But I can't do that because I do need to speak to clients. I do need to speak to friends and family and socialize. That's part of life. It's it's healthy. It's a healthy thing to do. And so I need to do those things. I also don't particularly like making videos. As a matter of fact, I rather detest making videos sitting here in front of the camera with a ring light and getting the tools and stuff for it, trying to improve the quality. I don't really enjoy it as much as maybe a full-time YouTuber might, but I know I must do it because that's how I am able to keep the lights on. You know, and do those things. So you do have to sacrifice a little bit here and there, and that's that's practically normal. You have to understand where you're willing to sacrifice, and it takes a lot of courage to do it. It's not going to be easy at all. It's going to take a lot of courage to stand firm in your values, to stand firm in what you believe is right for yourself, not to be subjected by the pressure of your family or society, and to stick with it, and don't be pressured by it. If you must do art, you have to do art.
[23:20]You must be creative at the sacrifice of maybe not having enough money for rent for a couple of months, something out there will save you. This is what Jung is trying to teach in psychology and individuation. You cannot neglect it. Obviously, there are things that we must do to live properly, like I mentioned. But if you're calling, you cannot ignore your calling. You cannot.
[23:57]I could not. And I suffered a lot for it. But when I look back, I I don't think I I don't. I would not have chosen any other path. I suffered for that very reason, and it is suffering. It is painful. But if you don't go through that, you're just going to suffer, probably even worse, if you do not answer your calling. You're going to waste this one life that you do have. So, those are, I know we went kind of deep and I I don't really mind. I kind of wanted this to drag on and let my unconscious come out and speak on behalf of me, and that's what I've tried to do. Yeah, so that's all I have, and I hope my experiences would probably help somebody or at least bring a bit of insight to the struggles of our personality type, and if you share the same personality type or the same problems of what you want to do in life. Again, there's no advice here. I'm not saying you should do anything. There's no answers, which might be a bit frustrating, I understand that. But what I'm essentially trying to say is the answers exist within yourself. You don't need anyone to tell you. As long as you follow your own dreams, quite literally, your dreams will tell you. And the proof is in the pudding, like my I had a dream when I was seriously doubting if psychology was the right approach to my own life. Like, okay, how on earth am I going to make a living out of this, or how on earth am I going to survive just doing psychology? And I had a dream and I was giving, I was in a very famous person's house doing an analysis for him, and he was severely depressed. And so I, I did the analysis, and that was a dream, and I understood from that dream was like, okay, I I think this will work. So your dreams really will give you some sort of guidance in your life. It won't give you, again, it's not going to give you the direct answer, but that's not the, it's not going to, it's not going to be that clear. You need to be patient. You need to take the steps necessary in order to get the right answer, and only in doing that work, do you know that that is the right answer. It's like fast food. It tastes good, but it's not healthy for you. You don't want fast food. You want well-cooked Michelin star food. You want it to take time, and you want to, it's going to be expensive, you know, expensive in terms of time. So that's how you know you're on the right approach in terms of understanding your direction in life. It's going to take time. You need to be patient, and you need to understand that it comes with suffering, and you can't avoid the suffering. You can temporarily evade it, but it'll catch up to you and be twice as bad later on. So I hope this helps, and thank you so much for watching.
