Why Everyone Leaves

[0:00]There comes a point in your life where you stop wanting to be loved by someone. And it's not peace, it's not healing, it's exhaustion. It's the kind of tired that sits in your chest, the kind you can't sleep off, the kind that makes you say, I'm fine being alone. Even though every part of you knows it's a lie, you don't stop believing in love. You just get tired of begging for it, tired of explaining what hurts, tired of asking to be chosen in a world where you always feel like someone's second choice. You start pretending you're okay on your own, but really, you're just tired of teaching people how to love you, right. You were the type of person who always saw the good in everyone. You believed effort could fix distance, that patience could warm a cold heart, that loyalty would bring loyalty back, but the wrong people drain that out of you. Piece by piece, day by day, until love stopped feeling like love and started feeling like work. They made you feel like love was something you had to earn, like you had to prove your worth for the bare minimum. And when you spend enough time loving people who only meet you halfway, you forget what it feels like to be met fully, to be understood without explaining every detail, to be cared for without begging. So now, when someone tries to love you, you freeze, you question it, you overthink it. You wait for the switch, you wait for the moment they change because that's what your past taught you, that love comes with conditions, that it doesn't last, that if someone stays, they're just waiting for a reason to leave in the saddest part. Deep down, you still want love, you still crave connection, you still want someone who chooses you even on your hardest days. You just don't want to chase it anymore. You don't want to lose yourself trying to feel worthy of something that should have come naturally. You didn't stop wanting love, you just got tired of searching for it in places that never loved you back. And one day, someone is going to show you what it feels like to be chosen without asking, love without conditions, held without fear. You're not too much, you're not hard to love, you were just loving the wrong people. Your heart isn't broken, it's just waiting for the right place to call home.